5:15am Woke up thinking about best friend. Text said person.
6:00am Fell back asleep. FINALLY!
6:40am Woke back up. Text received about blog last night from best friend. More talk about said blog.
7:00am Best friend mentions being scared of herself and what she can do to end the pain. Scares me to death!
8:00am Will not get off the phone with best friend. Scares me too much to think about losing her, even if she was at work today. Began packing as quickly as possible.
9:00am Left the apartment. Got fuel. (And a Pepsi.) And was on my way to her place. ETA: 12:30pm.
10:03am Got the feeling I was going to be run over by an 18-wheeler...twice. Was on phone off and on with best friend. Starting to feel better as she made various appointments with doctors and seemed to cheer up.
11:15am Felt the need to pray the Rosary, thus the Rosary was prayed for said friend. Afterward, much singing in adoration of God was done. I had a good time with it, though still completely paying attention to my driving.
11:40am Metal bar in road. Car next to me. Can't swerve to miss it. "Shit." Ker-plunk, Ker-plunk.
11:41am Smoke appeared from rear. Concerns me greatly.
11:42am Left message on Dad's voicemail. Call Mom. Mom said it was probably fine. Dad returns call. Dad said it was not fine.
11:43am Pull off at gas station just to check on the car. Asked Dad if it is okay to turn off my car. He said that I should be fine. Turn car off.
11:44am Checked on car. Lots of red fluid has formed a puddle under my car. Concerns me greatly. Looks above car...no parking sign. Ahead of me, scale for 18-wheelers. Truckers pull around me ungrateful of my desire to park my car in their way. (Though, one trucker was an excellent driver and figured out how to make it!)
12:02pm Still sitting at gas station. Scared and alone. Unsure of what to do. Posted this status:
Scared and lonely.
Sitting in a no parking zone in a car that is leading tons of oil and probably a shot engine.
Yay for some metal bar in the middle of hwy 44.
Needless to say, it's just me and God for the next while. :'/
12:03pm Still scared. Multiple calls. Afraid of the battery quickly decreasing on my phone. Still wondering when I'm going to make it home (well, my best friend's home). Praying that God will use this incident in some good way.
12:57pm Dad arrives. By now, it looks as if some dead person is bleeding all underneath my car. Transferred stuff over to his car. ROLLED/PUSHED my car to a safer location. Hid key for tow truck driver and headed to best friend's house with much thanks to Dad! :)
2:06pm Arrival and unloaded my stuff. Set up my throne next to best friend's throne. Thanked God for the safe arrival. And continued my day.
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Needless to say, it has been quite the day. Especially with the craziness of my morning. My friend honestly scared me. I suppose it is because she began using my name in the texts. She does that when she is upset or angry. But this time, I just got the vibe. I didn't ignore it. As I was driving, I wondered if I was nuts making the drive home the weekend before finals week. But, I completely and totally understood that I needed to make the drive. No matter how much my knees screamed at me. And especially while I was praying the Rosary, I just felt I was doing something right. Granted, the metal bar came and it seemed all was lost. But while the financial burden will certainly be a burden, I knew it would all play into some crazy plan of God's. I didn't lose hope, except for a moment that I had to myself before the phone calls came. The greatest part though, was that my best friend sent me a text right as I was ending the Rosary thanking me for taking the time to come home to see her. That was definitely my favorite part of the day.
I don't know how many people can just get up and leave whatever you're doing, without even thinking of the consequences, to be there for a friend. I just hope that you are there for people when they need you most. I pray that you are there to listen and to be a smile, even if it is your last! I hope you have someone in your life that would do the same for you too!
Most of all, I pray that you have someone in your life that you can share life with. No, I'm not talking specifically about marriage or boyfriend/girlfriend, though that can be part of it. I'm talking about someone you can be completely and utterly honest with. The person that you can share your heart, no matter how heavy it is, and they are willing to hold it in their hands with the utmost care you could ever imagine. The person you can share your deepest darkest secrets with, but can be laughing hysterically 23.7 seconds later! Someone you love being around, even if nothing is said. Someone who loves you for you, no matter what.
I have that friend. In fact, she is even more than a best friend. She is my sister. Not by blood. Rather by that deep friendship that we are sharing life together. Through thick and thin, we hold each other up. Even when our strength is weak, we have God to help us. Our faith keeps our glimmer of a will going through it all. I know I can make it through any day because I have someone here on earth willing to walk (or even crawl) with me through it.
Today has been interesting. Scary. But a reminder of what really matters in this life:
1) Love God.
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