Xenophobia is the "fear of the foreign, especially strangers, or that which is foreign or strange." So I'm predicting my future to be xenophobic. I have no idea what lies ahead. After quitting school, I realized how much relief it put on my body, but the stress it caused in realizing what I wanted to do with my life. Some of you may think that I am still meant to be a United Methodist pastor, and while that may be the case, things would have to change in the church before I could take those steps. They don't accept just everyone of sexual orientation to preach the Word of God and love people. SO, there is that. I'm not going to stop being who I am for a rule. Some of you may think that I should have been a music teacher....WRONG!!! Couldn't stand my hobby being a career! And some of you may think that I should be an editor, English teacher, going to Africa, etc. Only one of those will still happen - I will still go to Africa one day, because I WANT TO! Everything is very foreign to me because I didn't plan all of this from the start. My job is holding on by threads because of the limited hours they have to offer and I NEED more hours. ANYWAY, I want to go back to school, but I want to go to a trade school - Massage Therapy School. And I need a job closer to home. I know that I can do it. SO, I'll be applying soon and hoping for financial aid. But, I also want my parents to stop claiming me as a dependent on their taxes. Besides that, not much is going on since we have no money to do anything that we want to do. I'm not as happy as I was initially, but I think that is just because of the stress that is on right now since Nichole was dumped on as sole provider for me. ALTHOUGH, Dad does help out quite a bit with the rent, phone bill, and my car insurance.
That's all I wanted to rant about for now. Hope you didn't mind!
