Random Thoughts Spilled Out

Regarding Head covering:
Thus far, it seems to be going well. Yes, I am covering again. I didn't even make it 48 hours without wearing it! I felt guilty, and I could barely make it out of the house without it on! God moved a few people to send a phone call or two my way to make me aware of their support even though they may not completely agree with my stance. So, that was really awesome!
I'm always amazed when people have seen me with my cover on for 5 or 6 times, and THEN they finally decide to ask about it. Honestly, I was expecting the questions to come the first or second times, certainly by the third time! Oh well! I still answer them and hope to gain support. (Remember, I'm not asking for permission to follow God's will for my life.) The stares on the school bus shuttle are indescribable! I'm not sure why people have a fascination with staring at me when I have only wrapped a scarf around my head! Usually the stares don't bother me, unless I forget to focus my attention on God before I leave for classes in the morning! (I know this from experience...) Again...it's only a scarf!
Speaking of which, I wear a rectangular scarf (usually with tassels on the ends). Generally I wear it in a bun on the back of my head after putting my hair in a bun. I think this is the easiest way for me to wear my cover and not cause people to freak out too much when they see me. For some reason, there are some bad feelings towards the Islam population on campus, and I don't want to get lumped in with that. SO, I wear my scarf and my cross every day! :) I dress modestly...I don't wear anything that comes higher than my knees. And I cover most of my upper arm. Sometimes, I wear T-Shirts because I am a college student and I feel like they are still covering the areas that need to be covered just out of modesty. Note that I make sure my clothes are modest because I believe it would look unusual to wear my headscarf and wear a short skirt and very low cut shirt! Just doesn't make sense. Haha! I also have a snood (thanks to a VERY good friend)...It hasn't really grown on me yet, but it's really comfortable, so I like to wear it at home when I'm not doing anything. Lol. Still trying to discern if God really wants me to cover my head through the night...Who knows?! But yeah, a snood is comfortable to sleep in. :)

Regarding sermon-writing:
It's been about two months since I wrote a sermon. I'm preaching back at home on Labor Day weekend. That's this Sunday! I've been going crazy trying to get everything done for school...and haven't had time to work on a sermon. I "kind of" know what i want to talk about, or what God is leading me to talk about, but I'm struggling to get it down on paper. This will be my first sermon written and given wearing my head covering. Honestly, I'm pretty nervous about it all! Especially with it being in my hometown. Ya know, Jesus was kicked out of His hometown...I'd rather not be kicked out, but whatever must happen will happen. I'd tell you my ideas of what it's going to be about, but some of you might actually be there on Sunday, so i won't spoil it...Lol. Who knows?! By then, I could have a completely different topic that God wants me to do! It's only Tuesday!

Anyhow, that's all I have for now...more like all i can say for now. Sorry for any and all typos...My hand is starting to go numb, so that's not helping! Thanks for reading! And have an awesome night!!!

In Christ,
Me

Stained

Read: Psalm 51

Grape juice. I honestly hate it right now. I was “carefully” removing the communion elements to get rid of them when IT happened. (In other words – I was going around getting people to eat the rest of the bread and juice since they were concentrated and I could not throw them away) THEN, someone called my name, and grape juice splashed all over my new green shirt and khaki pants. Let’s just say, I was NOT a happy person. The grape juice had spilt all over my left pants leg which were initially a light tan and made the juice had made my flip flop all sticky. Soon, my pants were sticking to my leg. (This happened early in the clean up procedure, so I had to live with it for AT LEAST another hour!) Meanwhile, my pants were slowly going through the process of being stained! I began to be concerned only with how my pants were doing. I was aggravated, frustrated, and all of those other words that deal with those emotions that are not pleasant!!!

You too may be stained. You may feel like something happened and it has ruined your life forever! Your thoughts and emotions may be controlled by this stain like mine were with my stained pants. You just can’t seem to shake it from your life. It may or may not have been your fault. (I certainly could blame whoever called my name!) And that hour of my life was probably the longest hour of clean-up that I have ever experienced!!! You may feel like your stain is going to be there forever!!!

Long story made short, my pants are stained. I did not get to them quickly with the right materials. However, your life with your stains doesn’t have to be like that for forever!!! If you allow Jesus to come into your life…FULLY…then He can wash your life to be free of sin. You don’t have to have those nasty stains anymore. All you have to do is accept His offer. Once you do, know that all of your stains are gone! He sincerely washes you white as snow in regards to your slate of sins! No more nasty grape juice on you!!!

This song tells all: Jesus Paid It All - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tmuxxc00AHo

No Longer Choosing to Cover...

Dear W.W.W.,

I am no longer choosing to cover my head as a Christian woman. It isn't because I no longer agree with the practice. In fact, I learned a lot by covering my head and I see great value in it. I do support others who choose to cover their heads as Christians and I will support anyone who comes to me asking if they should cover their heads. I believe it is biblically based and the decision is between God and that person. I respect that decision.

The reason I am not covering at this time is because I do not have the support I need to persist. I don't have support from the people at home, nor do I have support from those here. I believe head covering is a beautiful way for a woman to express her love and respect for God. For now, I do not have the support to continue to cover my head on a daily basis. Hope you will respect my decision.

Love in Jesus Christ,

~Samantha

Existence as a Christian Head-covering Woman

For those of you who have seen me in the past week…You have realized that I have something on my head. Very good! You are not blind! If you have been afraid to talk to me about it or if we didn’t have the time to talk, I thought I would share why I have chosen to cover my head. I AM STILL A CHRISTIAN! I cannot and will not ever change religions. Oh, and Jesus isn’t going to tell me to become a Muslim. I have prayed about this decision and researched it like crazy! I realize that there are many implications to it, but I hope after hearing why I have chosen to cover my head (as a Christian woman) that you will understand that those are small hills to overcome…rather than large mountains! SO…Without further address…

Here are a few reasons why I have chosen to cover my head as a Christian woman:

1. “God told me to.” Yes, this is a simple answer, but you can’t deny its truth unless you think I am a crazy lunatic. About a month ago, a friend began seriously looking into covering her head. She felt like God was asking her to take 1 Corinthians 11 literally, so she and I started talking about it. As she began looking into it, I did too. I had read the Scripture in the past, yet had taken the head covering as something of the Corinthian culture. As I looked deeper, I found that it did not seem to be so connected with the culture; I found that it was very possible that God could be asking women to cover their heads today. Up until about 100 years ago, women covered their heads. It wasn’t just in church either. They would wear a head covering all day, whether they were inside the home or outside. If it was only a thing of the Corinthian culture, why would the church’s people continue it for 1900 years?! Because of the radical changes in society, one may think that the culture of today has altogether dropped the head covering, yet there are still many women who cover their heads (even in the United States) because of this Scripture. Further than that, I feel that I am sinning against God if I am not wearing it. After praying about it and researching it like crazy, I believe that it is something that Christian women (even today) should follow. Now that I believe that it is correct for women to cover their heads and that it was not merely a cultural practice, I must wear it. When I don’t have my cover on, I feel that constant nudge from the Holy Spirit asking, “Where is your cover? Cover your head.” It pains me to know that something as simple (though some days it seems like a mountain) as covering my head can be disobedient to the ONE who loves me so much as to die for me on a cross! John 14:21 has carried me through this first week of wearing a head covering…“Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show Myself to him” (NIV)……I wear it for Jesus.

2. It’s biblical. SO…What is this Scripture?! 1 Corinthians 11:2-16 will give you the entire context of it…But verses 5 and 6 are the heart of head covering for Christian women. It reads, “And every woman who prays or prophesies with her head uncovered dishonors her head-it is just as though her head were shaved. If a woman does not cover her head, she should have her hair cut off; and if it is a disgrace for a woman to have her hair cut or shaved off, she should cover her head” (NIV). Now, I am not an expert by any means, but I would say that most women like, if not love, having hair! I would rather have my hair covered, than to have no hair. I also realize that 1 Thessalonians 5:17 asks Christians to “Pray unceasingly.” So for a woman to only wear her head covering when she prays…Well, that pretty much implies all the time! Hence why I cover my head from morning until night. (I don’t sleep with it on. Haha.)

3. I like it. The first time my five-year-old brother saw me with it on, he said, “You look funny!” I said the same thing the first time I looked at myself! It definitely took a few glances to get used to it. But now that I wear it all the time and most people know, I am completely content with wearing it. I feel more grounded in my faith. It reminds me to be modest in my dress. Wearing a head covering is definitely an outward sign that I practice my religion. Yes, some see me with it on and think “Muslim.” I wear a cross every day too…so if people really do look, hopefully they will realize that I am a Christian, not a Muslim. And if people know me, they know that I am MOST DEFINITELY a Christian! I really don’t want my cover to bring attention to me because that isn’t why I wear it. I wear it for Jesus. If I wore it for people, I really would be a lunatic! It isn’t easy spending 19 years of your life without a cover, and then introducing the idea to family, friends, church families, and even strangers that are brave enough to ask. Know that I look for support in following what God has asked me to do…I do not ask for permission to wear my cover. Another reason that I like wearing it (this one is kind of silly), I NEVER HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT A BAD HAIR DAY! I get up in the morning, decide what to wear, and choose a scarf. I shower at night so that my hair is dry by morning so I do not ruin my hair by putting it up wet, or having to blow dry it (which also ruins it). It has become a routine that keeps me focused on God in the morning as I wrap the scarf…YET I will never forget why I wear it. I think the scarves are comfortable to wear…especially the way that I choose to wear them. However, I still know that one is on my head…I can feel the weight of it and it reminds me throughout the day to constantly be in prayer and fellowship with God. It keeps me accountable to my actions and words. I recognize sin in my life in a very real and convicting way. (Some would consider this a downfall, but sin separates us from God…and that isn’t something I want.) I really do like wearing my head covering. I wear it for Jesus in order to obey the commands laid out in the Bible.

I am always up for questions, but I’m not good with bashing. This is something God has called me to do, and if you don’t agree…that’s okay. But, please watch your words. Ask and comment away!

PS…“Radical - of or from the root or roots; going to the foundation or source of something; fundamental; basic” (Webster’s New World College Dictionary, 1996).